Friday, 29 April 2011

What I (Will) Have Given Up for Islam

Assalamu Alaykum.

As my Muslim friend (TheSisterWhoSmiles) reminds me all the time, being a Muslim is not state of being - it's a process of becoming. No matter how much of a sinner we are, we can always make conscious decisions to become a better Muslim as part of our spiritual Lesser Jihad.

"The best jihad [struggle] is the one who strives against his own self for Allah, The Mighty and Majestic." - Hadith

I've given up many things for Islam, and am currently in the process of giving up some more things. Being brought up in an Islamophobic family, there have been major obstacles which I had to fight to become a better Muslim.

Here are some of my personal obstacles:

Alcohol. My father loves it and its various forms: beer, wine, vodka, whisky, etc. Every now and then, he buys a new brand of alcohol, and he expects my mother and I to try some, and I do, sometimes. Most of the time, I make an excuse about studying for an exam. I haven't told my parents that I have reverted, mainly because I am still living with them and I do not want any arguments. But insha'Allah I will tell them in the future. I have vowed that I will not drink alcohol, but I think this is going to be one of my greatest struggles.

Pork. I love(d) it. Bacon, Sausages, Pork Pies - very British, and very delicious. Islam, however, forbids it, as it is "unclean" and is destructive towards the soul. I still sometimes eat pork, even after my reversion, maybe once or twice a month. Astaghfirullah. I hope that by the end of this year, I will be pork-free, insha'Allah. Besides, it's high in cholesterol.

Swearing. My mother loves it. I hear it all the time from my mother, my friends (and enemies), and, of course, songs and movies often contain it. These influences have surrounded and it hurts that I cannot escape from it fully. Being trapped in a profane world is not very... conducive for a moral soul. Sometimes, I swear accidentally without realising, and it is a constant reminder of my sins, and things for which I have to atone.

Forgetting to Pray. My excuse is that I've never been to a Mosque, because there isn't one anywhere near where I live, and neither are there many "properly-practising" Muslims. Because of this, I just forget to pray, and when I remember, I forget the Arabic, but I carry on in English nevertheless. Someone please teach me how to pray properly?

Not Fasting. Since my parents don't know I was Muslim last Ramadan, they made sure on several occasions that I ate breakfast and dinner. Lunches at school were difficult, but I tried as much as I could. Insha'Allah this Ramadan will be much, much easier.

Disrespect to Parents. Unfortunately, this happens all the time, due to disagreements. Astaghfirullah. I pray that this year will be a better year for my family.

... I'm sure there are many more, and I hope anyone reading this could give me any tips on how to become a better Muslim. :)
"Say: 'I seek refuge in the Lord of Daybreak from the mischief of His creation; from the mischief of the night when she spreads her darkness; from the mischief of conjuring witches; from the mischief of the envier, when he envies.'" - The Holy Qur'an (Surah 113)


  1. Praying?
    I found this pdf isn't bad (:

  2. JazaakAllah! Very useful! Printing out soon ;)

  3. Asalamu alaikum brother
    Alhamdulilah for your guidance, and Masha'Allah i find this blog really insightful to see a formerly atheist point of view, and your journey to the true path
    i pray Allah keeps you steadfast and no matter how hard the struggle, never give up, for Allah is always with the believers :)
    i feel this post will hopefully bring some comfort & inspiration:
    its aimed at muslim girls lool, but i think it can be applied genrally for all.
    You'll be in my du'as.

  4. Halima, wa alaykum salaam, jazaak'Allah for your comment and the link, it was inspiring, and it has given me comfort that I'm not the allowed with such struggles. Ameen to your du'as and I'm happy that you enjoyed the blog.

    Allah Hafiz!

  5. Assalamu Alikaum Nasir,

    It was a pleasure to read your comment on my blog and even more pleasurable to hear that you are a revert alhamdulillah! I am always fascinated to hear stories of people who become Muslim because they are all so unique and always with a touch of awe.
    You have already taken the first big step and being so young Allah will reward you for your struggles and will give you strength insha'Allah to get through.

    Alhamdullilah, the "Leave Islam Safely" advertisements were removed by the cab company following a successful petition. Just like how the Quran was going to be burned and it didn't actually happen but the massive media publicity made so many people curious that hundreds of Qurans were sold in a single day. Allah always knows best.

    By the way, my blog is fictional, but if you ever need specific tips, do let me know :)

    Dreamer--never stop dreaming.

  6. Shukran, Dreamer. I'm glad those sick advertisements have been removed. Indeed, Allah does know best. :)

  7. TryingToBeBetter7 May 2011 at 18:58

    Salam brother

    Alhamdulillah, i'm really happy for you. Here's a link on how to pray :

    Insha Allah do research more on other resources as there may be better ones..
    Islam is not only a religion, unlike others its also a way of might have known it by now, so no offence, just saying. :) Just a reminder, please don't restrict yourself too much in the search of doing the right thing. Insha Allah make your intention (niyyah) right, as it is one of the most important aspects, which is known by you and Allah only when you are making it. Who knows, Allah might accept or reject our deeds simply because of our intentions alone. :)
    Islam is a deen (religion & way of life) with logic and reasoning, so insha Allah i pray you and all of us find ease, logic and love in doing that which pleases Allah. :)


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